Never Thought I’d Say This…
Thursday, October 22nd, 2009
…. but I miss having someone to cook for. I never thought that this would be something I’d miss. In my previous life, bearing the responsibility of having the answer to that awful question, “What do you want to do for dinner?” made my ass clench. I wasn’t even very good at coming up with the answers. I would cook maybe only three nights out of seven, might make something from frozen twice. We ate out a lot. A LOT.
But now, I am dying to eat normal food. It simply is not practical though to do so. My daughter eats nothing practically, and there is no sense in cooking a whole meal just for me. I don’t make and freeze things and I rarely eat leftovers. Do not get me started on my thoughts about leftovers. That’s a can of crazy it’s best not to open.
It’s turning fallish and I’m thinking of chili and cornbread, and soups and homemade rolls, and chicken and dumplings, and yummy things made in the crock pot. But there is no sense in any of that. It’s a waste. Hell, I have to order more food than I want from the pizza joint or Chinese food place just to make it worth their while to deliver food to me. I eat like crap. I’m already starting to feel judged by my microwave.
We are having a Halloween party at my daughter’s request and I am fighting the urge to prepare an elaborate meal because that would just be silly. But to have people! To cook for! Ooh, the thought is too delightful.
