Graduation Day

I have to say, I am feeling pretty good lately. I am hopeful about the future, generally in a good mood (if you don’t count the normal annoyance of dealing with a douchebag three year old), and actually able to sleep. I have slept the past two nights without the aid of medication, which is a big development. I’ve been taking something to sleep since November. But I can’t do it forever, now can I? So I decided to try to go it alone and see what happens, and it was ok.

I still feel a bit unsure of what I want to do with myself, but I’m giving myself time to think about it. I have time to decide what I want to be when I grow up. I’m trying not to rush myself into making decisions I don’t have to make yet. The answers will come. Eventually.

I think that I’m going to wean myself off therapy. Slowly, of course. I’ll reduce to every other week, which will be a relief to my bank account. But I feel ok about it. I skipped this week because my therapist had a conflict and it’s fine. I don’t NEED to get the emotions out every week anymore.

I’m doing big girl things like dealing with the end of my car lease and buying a new one. I haven’t done this alone, well, ever. My next big task will be to find health insurance, as I won’t have coverage once the divorce is final.

I can do this. I’m going to be ok.